alittlerayofsunshine

I could have stayed in his arms all night
Id give anything to be back there

This day last year was my first day of being single and it was a tough day for me, but I have grown so much from that breakup and become a much stronger person because of it. I have no regrets from our relationship, we loved eachother so much and have so many great memories and there is nothing I regret, this year has been a tough one but helped me in so many ways, it has gone so quickly but so slowly as well. I am happy and I am a stronger person because of this year just can’t believe that it has been a year already, just goes to show how time flies!

I want your arms around me again, I want you to hold me like you did last week, where I fell asleep in your arms feeling safe and wanted and special, I would give anything to have that again right now, that night was so incredible to me and I can’t wait for it to happen again, and I know it will and that makes me so so happy :) I want to see you, I miss you!

I deserve this :)

1. My much loved Uncle to Leaukemia (witnessed death)

2. The beautiful Tinka (witnessed death)

3. The man i loved more than this world

4. A very close friend

5. All Trust!

6. Almost my Auntie in a car accident

7. The house that i call my home

8. The ability to truly be happy

9. ALL HOPE!

YOU THINK THAT HE IS THE ONLY REASON I AM THE WAY I HAVE BEEN THIS YEAR! WELL YOUR WRONG! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS THAT HAVE NOT GONE RIGHT THIS YEAR AND ARE PULLING ME TO PIECES! ITS ALL TO MUCH TO DEAL WITH AND ITS ALL ON MY OWN! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MY YEAR OR LIFE HAS BEEN LIKE SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO JUDGE OR SAY YOU DO! TAKE A LOOK AT NUMBERS 1, 3, AND 7. THESE ARE ALL HUGE THINGS THAT WOULD CHANGE ANYONES LIFE… TRY DEALING WITH THEM ALL AT ONCE AND THEN TELL ME YOU KNOW!!!

Really excited but also really nervous and scared, can’t wait to see where this goes! Can it be the same as it was? We shall see as time goes by, starting tomorrow night :D

(via andnowhowdoyoufeel)

The WORST year ever!! And that’s not an exaggeration!!